im on my break right now until i go back to work..at bath n body works at the beverly center..im over at megans right now of course cuz i dont have my computer still and she made me read and look at anencephaly pictures/stories...and now im all depressed..and im gonna go back to work all sad! but i was having a bad day in the first place..since dog face woke me up around 10:40 and i was supposed to be at work at 11..so i had to call in and tell them i was havin car trouble and would be a lil late..well i was trying to make coffee and breakfast while holding dogface because hes a big baby..and and dogface went to go take a bite of my toast..cuz hes a bad boy and i quikly moved the toast and he bit my lip....and blood dripped down my cheek and onto my white workshirt..and my wash machine is broke at my house so i have not been able to do laundry for a while and im to lazy to go across the street so i had to but on a dirty black shirt..but whatever it wasnt that dirty! Krista and her family are down here in la..visiting the old disneyland world...so tomorrow night i am gonna go down to down town disney and go dancing with krista and stay at her hotel and spend time with her family! and then sunday megan and i are going to club londen with Effrin..effrin is this guy who works at bath n body who loves morrissey and the cure..but i think he might be gay because he is sassssssuuuuuupppppppppper funny and sssssuppppppeeeerrrr cute and just awsome!! so it should be fun! and tonight megan and i are going to ucb ..and maybe come back and get waisted..but i donno cuz i dont want to leave dog face alone agaiN!

so the update with nicholas... nothing really is knew..we dont talk much on the phone except last night i broke down and called him..i try not to though so he can call me ..but we talked about when we are gonna go photograph..which we still have not set a day cuz i dont know when he will be in whitter and i dont know when i will have a day off from work! but he writes to me more on myspace and textmessages me telling me he cares about me so...i still dont know if were just friends with benefits or dating or what..but whatever!!

so christmas shopping is going to be really easy this year everyone is getting bath n body works except megan cuz she already got stuff from me from bath n body and plus she might be working there soon so she will get discounts and stuff but both my sisters my god mom and my real mom are getting bath n body..but my mom is getting cds and a shirt too..and my grandpa is the only one i have to get for!

oh so im going home for christmas and dogface is coming with me ..which is not going to be a surprise to my mom because she found out from my ex boyfriend JOE..stupid mother fucker..anyways but its gonna be a suprise to my gpa...and my mom and gpa live together and gpa is the one paying for my rent in hollywood..so he might kill me or make me give away dogface or something... im scarred!
anyways..im done writing stupid stuff..
ps..i like how this is one long sentence

ummm so im not that mad at nicholas anymore..infact things are back to normal..and im in this hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee house with a pool and cool stuff like a hug tv..thats the size of the all..with him cuz were house sitting!!!

well gotta go cuz he is coming in the room and i dont want him to know i write about him..ill post more later

i gave dog face a bath for the first time..well megan did most of the work...but here are some pics of us giving him a bath and us gettin drunk at my house before the club..

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sooo i wrote on nicks myspace page in a comment.. " wow you would think the girl your fucking would be in your top 8"because im not in his top 8!!! and megan agreed with me that he treats me like shit..and finally i just broke down and i wrote in a blog how i hate how he ignores me and treats me like shit..and that our friendship is gone..which really makes me sad because we were best friends for three years but i guess thats what happens when you start sleeping with your best friend..ohhhh how i cant even see straight im soo sooo soooo scarred, mad and sad and just i dont knowwwww i feel like my life is coming to an end


but then megan is just reminding me...how my life is only getting better i got rid of the jerk..and i just worked on two!!! yest 2 student films with her last night and we fuckin kicked ass..welll they think that anyways..and i got a job interview tomorrow for bath and body and my dog no longer has stiches..but he still smells but i bought him 2 shirts at american apperal..and tomorrow megan and i are gonna get a lot of our busness shit done and were gonna go to club moscow and get waisted and walk home...yeppie and im gonna find a hot scene make out with for the night...and that should make me feel better...

i have been at a cafe in hollywood called the ground work.. i believe since 2 this afternoon and right now its 5...just because the internet here is free and megan is letting me have her computer for the weekend while she is gone..and since i have not had my computer n god knows how long...i am sitting her on livejournal until the fucking cafe makes me leave..which well be closing time!
thank god for megan

i have turned into hollywoods biggest fatty..not meaning that i have gotten really fat..which i will sooner or later get really fat because i eat soooo much food...and megan is being so good about being vegan and shit... and i just went to the store at midnight to make cookies and now i am eating ice cream....

and also bugs have been trying to kill me... the other night driving home from the grove megan got this look on her face and it was almost like a dog face but noooooot quit... it was a BUG FAcE don don donnn...and she swerved the car to a save place were we could escape this triangle alain bug..it wasnt a spider nor a cricket it was a werid HUGE thing crawling toward me form the dashboard... it was crazy..i tried to splash it was some water to make it go out side the window..i know not the smartest move...but the water didnt faze him one bit...and then magen tried to scrap it off with something... and it dont faze it either..this bug was gonna beat us to the end.. but finally megan got him out of the car...but it was right by the pasenger door so i had to crawl in from the back seat... and then today i went to go to the bathroom at megans house and a huge pincher bug flew from no where right by my ass and landed in the toilet thank god.. but it was amaing for my bottem..thank god i didnt have my pants down yet...but anyways i screamed loud enough that megan came to flush him down the toliet before i passed out

i have a crush on an 18 year old which i know is not that young for me...but i have never even met him..i just saw him on myspace and he has the cutest lil fro ever with nerdy glasses..yeah hes the hottest!!! im so sad...i need to make more friends here in hollywood..cuz someone is making someone move to az...but im gonna put up a fight damn it....cuz i think someone should make someone move to hollywood instead who cares if you can have a big house with a yard n stuff..instead of a trash studio...who cares who??

ummmm sooooi have not wrote in a long time maybe because everything in my life breaks or something goes wrong...lets see lets start with how my car has been in the shop twice the last month and no one knows whats wrong with it..and it only acts werid sometimes...my dvd player broke...my computer broke...my cd player broke....all in this month... ummm i moved out of my old studio that was pre furnished..and into another studio that has no furniture so i have not bed or anything for that matter..and i probably wont for a nother day or so..so i have been sleeping in megans room..hahaha cuz she is in arizona visiting her brodie brodie...brodie (brodie brodie) is the tyep of name that your have to say twice...brodie brodie.. and today at target someone stole my cell phone so i had to get a new one .... so now i dont have anyones numbers... !!!! so now i am eating some candy....it makes me smile

i bought a ugly ugly chaWOWahhhhh... i cant spell worth shit! te he he..~ but yeah its white with brown cow spots..and a nose that is soooooo pointy! he didnt want to come out of the cage at the pound..and the guy picked him by a rope around his neck...and he wouldnt move..he stood still with his tail in between his legs..and when the guy checked his tempature..he shivered himself almost off the table..the kitten next to him in its cage... i swear was laughing at him! my dogs name is DOG FACE now...makes since to me and megan!! i spent 250 on this dog today..and i dont even know if it will live...!! im gonna have to do some therapy classes with him..he is scarred of his own paw!!! its quit sad! i bought him both dragqueen and rockerish clothes for him...my dog is confused by his sexuality alrighty! but hey he lives in hollywood..so its all good! he ha a pink colar or a red spiky one.. and rolling stones shirt..and a cream metro sweater..and a pink bag to go into with a pink blanket..and a condom looking bed.. and ummm i think thats about all!! megan and i get to pick him up tomorrow after school..and soon you well all be waering dog face shirts!!!

OH SHIT..JOE IS ON HIS WAY TO HOLLYWOOD EVEN THOUGH I TOLD HIM NOT TO COME SEE ME THIS WEEKEND BECAUSE WERE OVER AND I NEED MY SPACE! BUT DID HE LISTEN NO? AND IM SOOO MAD I DONT WANNA SEE HIM AND I REALLY DONT HAVE TO BUT HE CAME ALL THIS WAY TO TALK TO ME..SO I CANT JUST LET HIM TRUN BACK AROUND WITH OUT HEARING WHAT HE HAS TO SAY TO ME..BUT DAMN IT I TOLD HIM NO!! EWWW HE IS BECOMING A STOCKER... AND I DONT KOW WHAT HE HAS TO SAY..WERE OVER AND THAT IT..AT LEAST IM STILL HIS FRIEND..WHAT MORE DOES HE WANT FROM ME?? HE KNOWS IM NOT OUT EATHER CUZ HE KNOS MEGANS IN AZ AND NICK IS PARTING WITH GEORGE..I REALLY NEED MORE FRIENDS IN HOLLYWOOD...SO I COULD HAVE AN EXCUSE..EWWWWW I DONNO WHAT TO DO..

sooooooo this morning was way CRAZY!!! way way way crazy, first of all i woke up for school today and saw that my car had been blocked in by someone elses car and i dint know who it belonged to so i couldnt go to pick up megan and she couldnt come get me either cuz her car was blocked in too by her roomate..and so i went back to bed and all of a sudden i woke up to the most INSANE pain ever in my stomach i couldnt walk, i couldnt move, i couldnt eat or drink..i was so sick and it got worse and worse as the morning went on.. i through up twice and by this point nick was freaking out!!! he was so scarred for me..so he called the doctor and then the doctor told nick to take me to the emergency room! so nick did and we got there at 10 and i had to get naked n one of those gray hospital gowns and i looked soooo horrible and he stayed with me, held my hand while i got my blood drawn, my iv stuck in my arm..he rupped my legs...and cried with me when i was crying because he felt bad for me! they had to do a pelvic exam on me..nick didnt leave my side..they did one of those ultrasounds on me..still nick didnt leave! he totally made up for last nights sleeping on the floor thing..and the funny thing is he drank before he came over so he didnt even know he was fighing with me about sleepin on the floor and when we woke up this morning he was in my bed..so he was just being stupid drunk!! but he is the bestest guy friends ever..so dang sweet and we just got a whole lot closer..we didnt get out of the hospital until 5 and neither of us ate anything all day!
the scarry thing is they still dont know what exactly is wrong with my stomach and they gave me pain killers..and i have to go back in a week!...im scarred!!

its 5:49 in the morning and NICK is sleepin on my floor?? why because he is the most stubern person in the world and refuses to sleep on my bed..it kinda makes me sick~~ like he doesnt wanna be next to me or something, but he says that its because he likes the floor better and he would chose the floor over anything..and and anyone..now that is just to werid and i cant understand....!! i have cried for like an hour..i think im way to emotional..the sad thing is he has not even woke up to the sound of me crying..either he doesnt care..or the floor really does help him sleep!! why do i always like the werid guys that make me wanna cry and scream all the time!!! he makes me feels so dang emotional..i always feel like i like him more then he likes me..which should not be the case since us girls are wayyyyyyyy to emotional for this shit.. i know i am over reacting but i cant help it... i think im gonna scream in his ear and wake his skinny ass up!
...ummm its way to early and late however you wanna look at it to be on the computer..cuz i dont even know if i am making since...
welll yeah im gonna go to bed now

ITS 11:13 AND NICK JUST CALLED AND WANTS ME TO GO WITH HIM AND SOME FRIENDS OUT TO A SUSHI BAR... AND IIM GONNA GO..I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW AND I HAVE LITTLE SLEEP LAST NIGHT CUZ I WAS ON THE PHONE WITH STUPID PEOPLE WITH STUPID PROBLEMS...EXCEPT NICK WE HAVE PROBLEMS BUT THERE MAINLY MINE SO... YEAH THERE NOT STUPID~ BUT I GUESS THE BAR IS CLOSE TO MY HOUSE AND SO I HAVE TO WAIT FOR THEM TO DIRVE OVER HERE..OR THE CRAZY THING IS BEING ME... I MIGHT HAVE TO GO PICK THEM ALL UP IN MY GHETTO JETTA THAT SOMETIMES DECIDES IT DOESNT WANT TO GO PAST 25 ON THE FREEWAY CUZ IT NEEDS A NEW TRANZ...AND THEY LIVE IN WHITTER WICH IS 30 MIN AWAY FROM HOLLYWOOD! AND THEN DRIVE ALL THE WAY BACK HERE TO HOLLYWOOD TO EAT AND THEN DIVE THEM ALL THE WAY BACK HOME TO WHITTER AND THEN DIVE BACK TO MY HOUSE SO I CAN SLEEP..IM GONNA GET HOME AT LIKE 3 IN THE MORNING MAYBE IF IM LUCKY..WHY AM I GOING.??? ...EKKKKKKKK IM INSANE..AND MEGAN WHY DID YOU LET ME EAT ALL OF THAT TACO BELL..EWWWWWWW!